我的平凡故事

The conversation went something like this:

「Have you ever thought that trust is proportionally related to risk? The more the risk, the more the trust. If there’s no risk, then there’s no trust. There can only be trust when there’s a risk.」

「…I trust you…」

「Is there any risk? 」

「…!」

I admitted to Nori the other night that ‘yes, I was stressed’. (am).

I don’t like admitting to stress and it’s not because I’m a new-age power fe-male who can take it all on - I have simply found that the easiest way to deal with the bad times is is say ‘It’s not that bad’ and hum ‘Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love you tomorrow, you’re only a day away’. - Yes, sappy, I know.

So, I can be frustrated, annoyed, angry, sad or all of the above and I can still trigger my default ’stress’ mechanism and Laugh. And it won’t last any more than a week. Call it PMS if it makes it a bit more comprehensible.

But this time - I’ve encountered the energy-sapping, tear-enducing Stress.

And to all those people who I’ve told, ‘aaah, it’s not that bad, look on the bright side’ - I take it back. It really is Not Easy.

Work and study has unfortunately rolled itself in to one big ball of worry and it has manifest itself into a vicious cycle of feeling sorry for myself (procrastination really), being angry at others and announcing my woes to anyone who cares to listen (i.e Nori).

So… it’s really time to pick myself off the ground and study

Note - title came from my dad who eyed my brother and me with raised eyebrows tonight as we draped our sorry forms over our dinner.

「And here’s an extra set of fork and knife in case you want to share the crepe

… but you won’t need a set for the cookie」

「… Thanks! …｣

So, in case you’ve ever wondered about Cookie eating ettiquette - you dont need to eat it with knife and fork! - can’t complain about customer service like that!

I found that ‘Crying’ is a very effective way to announce my return to Aussieland. (Thanks to everyone for caring)

You may interpret it as tears of joy to see my home and friends or tears of sorrow for my continued LDR.

I would very much like to bury myself under a heap of blankets and drown in my own tears, but work starts again tomorrow and life goes on, for the time-being.

Until my next post, possibly on my next holiday

Only 2 full days left …

Not only does it seem that I only blog while outside Aussieland, but also in direct repsonse to Jack…

Email:

3rd June, 15.10 -

Subject: Are you still alive?

Just checkin’

….from Jack…

Given the frequency of our emailing, I take that as a ’subtle’ hint that I’ve failed to blog since proving him wrong that he will not see a new blog entry until 2009.

The answer:

Yes!

The point of this post - other than to make you all envious I’m in Barcelona…. is to prove Jack wrong! Hah! Take that !

Love from tty and Seaweed-san

4 hours late and with only one of the two bags i’d packed, I’m back in GER.

It does sadly appear that I’m only blogging when I’m … not in Australia…

There is a reason, being that when I’m not in Australia, it means I’m on leave, which means I’m not stuck in a never-ending cycle of work and study (and other equally demanding social activities :), which means…. well, I’m here.

I will be attempting to be a tad bit more blog-productive during my 3 weeks here, perhaps that will return me to a more blog-loving type… and who knows, I might actually put thought to blog as I often intend.

Watch this space! (or not… if you have confidence in my blogging ways )

Happy New Year! Frohes Neues! 明けましておめでとうごさいます!

Hope everyone had a great end to 2007 and an even better start to the year 2008.

Hong Kong

As for myself, after nearly a year of adulthood and real-life work, I flew off to HK just before Christmas for a whirlwind week of shopping and … well, mainly shopping.

It’s been over two years since I visited HK, and even that last trip was only for 3 days. Theres been a lot of changes, but some things I found, don’t change and I hope they will never change. Theres a lot more to think about and perhaps even to put down to print, but its the start of the year, there are 364 days left to let the thoughts trickle though and weigh down on my sense of belonging and self.

An entry about my trip to HK is however not complete without a thank you to my best friend and cousin, HoiYing. No matter the gap in distance and time between our time together, we’re still like two peas in a pod ^^)v Hoiying!!!! Hughug Kisskiss la~~

Germany

Despite this being my shortest holiday overseas, it’s also the busiest trip. After a short week in HK, I hopped back onto a plane, headed even further north to the chilly continent of Europe to surprise the bear. (Great success I must say ^_^ much thanks to his friends for keeping it a secret, much thanks to David especially for waking up at godless hours to pick me up, much thanks to the friends who had to share my secret with me and wished me luck, giving me confidence)

Its nearly been a year since we last saw each other, its been a tough year but worth every day and minute. I feel strangely at ease here in Germany - despite the language barrier, theres an odd comfort, which perhaps comes with having someone so close live here.

I will only spend one week here in Chillyland, but it will be a good week, a great start to the year.

Best wishes to everyone, no matter where you are, no matter what bears on your mind at this moment - its a new year, the best excuse to start something afresh and new.

Much love and hugs from Germany.

(Next entry - Silvester in Aachen  =P)